When everything feels big

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Not like that! Get your mind out of the gutter!

I went today and got my eyebrows waxed for the first time. Are they exactly what I want them to be? No. But, I was an anxiety riddled mess the entire time.

The best part was the lady doing it was completely accepting, as if a trans woman having to exist in boy mode was a completely okay thing.

In the grand scheme of things, getting my brows done is not that big of a deal. However, to me, it was a huge step toward me goal of being able to just exist.

And it's exactly what I needed this week.

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